Posted by gregory haley on July 11, 2003 at 10:19:04:
i havent posted in a long time,long time listener.
I feel bad sometimes that i still dont get angry about wendy. I feel bad that i can say wendys name and sometimes i forget how close she was to my life. I only had two people i grew up with in my neighborhood --karen and wendy. if there ever was a family that allowed me to have a younger sister it was the solteros--- little wendy.
I remember i wasnt able to cry for the longest time after wendys death. MAN i have to say it is painfull to write that even now. so i guess the pain hasnt gone. i hope it never does, but i know that Time is a strange thing. it is as if it doesnt want you to remember -- as if you are supposed to either be vigilant about remmbering or have it pass into a catagory of a memory--- that was a bad time.
I have actualy learned i shouldnt be so selfish with my time and my energy. that i should give more of myself and relize that it will come back to me in other forms. I just cant beleive some body i know --REALLY WELL - is gone. This moment that we all shared was a special moment in fact i hope we all hold it dear and hold it as a desire to keep trying to do what we want since we coudl be next.
I have never been one to get my thoughts out well on papper but i felt the need to at least try . i hope i wasnt to crass or to crude --i seem to have a lack of tact or to incomplete. I truely mean the best.
love
gregory